A Heart in the Oven .

Dear God,


____________ is changing. My ____________ is changing. Things are just... changing. And I have no clue what is to happen next. I've never felt this way before, and I've never been at this point in my life before. I don't know why I'm here but I am and it's all a part of Your plan God.

But along the way sometimes I struggle with these changes. As people grow apart and as other grow closer, and as I continue to get more paranoid, I realize that I'm feeling emotions of ________ that I've either never really felt before or that I've never felt as strong before. And I don't really know what to do about them. These emotions sting as they sit on my heart. And they're not necessarily bad emotions, but it's like cooking a cake without a toothpick-- you never really know when it's actually done cooking or not, unless you stick your finger in there and screw up the whole cake. And my heart hurts once in a while as it sits here cooking, burning, changing, changing into something new and for the better I guess, but it still hurts cooking.

I always have to wonder which side is changing, though. Is it me, becoming stronger in certain emotions and weaker in others, or is it my surroundings changing? Am I revolving around my surroundings or are my surroundings and the people inside them revolving around me? I think I know the answer to that one but what I meant was, is the universe turning over a new side or am I? Or what if we're BOTH turning over a new side?

God, You know whats up. You're probably reading this letter thinking, "Come on __________, just hold on. It's all turning out for the better." You've told us that Love is patient. And I believe it. God, while these times are changing, or I'm changing, or whatever; while my heart is cooking to be something maybe new or for the better, I pray that You would give me the patience while I feel burned in certain areas of the process. And I pray that I could just love every minute of every day to the fullest, and every ONE to the fullest. And to never forget that You are in control... which is the best part.

Love, _____________

Simple

Love is _________________.

[God Only Knows] about the [Yellow] Stars the [Scientist] Studies.

[For these next few, fill in the blank with one name for each blank. You can apply the lyrics to more than one person, but to make sense think of one name and use it for the whole set of lyrics.]

I may not always love ____________
But long as there are stars above ___________
_________ never needs to doubt it
I'll make _____________ so sure about it

God only knows what I'd be without _____________

If __________ should ever leave me
Though life would still go on believe me
The world could show nothing to me
So what good would living do me

God only knows what I'd be without _________

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Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for __________,
And everything ________ does,
Yeah, they were all yellow.
I came along,
I wrote a song for _____,
And all the things ________ does,
And it was called "Yellow".
So then I took my turn,
Oh what a thing to have done,
And it was all "Yellow."
__________'s skin,
Oh yeah _________'s skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
You know, you know I love you so,
You know I love you so.
I swam across,
I jumped across for _______,
Oh what a thing to do.
Cos you were all "Yellow",
I drew a line,
I drew a line for _________,
Oh what a thing to do,
And it was all "Yellow."
_________'s skin,
Oh yeah _______'s skin and bones,
Turn into something beautiful,
And you know,
For you I'd bleed myself dry,
For you I'd bleed myself dry.
It's true,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine for you,
Look how they shine.
Look at the stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And all the things that you do.

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Come up to meet _______
Tell _______ I'm sorry
_______ doesn't know how lovely (he/she/it) is
I had to find _________
Tell ______ "I need you"
Tell ______ I set (him/her/it) apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles
Calling tails
Heads on a silence apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Did not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
I want to rush to the start
Running in circles
Chasing tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

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But in the midst of these thoughts you might have, please remember:

"So when the song's out of key
when the world's not in tune
I'll look up to the composer
and know these clashes will harmonize soon"

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hang in there.



[1st song: "God Only Knows"--Beach Boys
2nd song: "Yellow" --Coldplay
3rd song: "The Scientist"-- Coldplay
'these clashes will harmonize soon...'-- myself]